Right now I feel like I have nothing left. Life has been busy and crazy for a while, then some other stuff came up and dealing with everything isn’t easy, but it’s not so bad when you have someone by your side. Someone who, at the end of the day, is there to make it all worthwhile. My husband has been great throughout this whole pregnancy. I supposed he couldn’t be so wonderful the entire nine months. But when you throw yourself into a relationship and into love so fully, it makes it hit that much harder when you hit a rough spot. Maybe I’m over-reacting and over-emotional because I’m pregnant. Maybe this is just one of those “down” days of pregnancy. Thank goodness I haven’t had many of them. I’d be losing weight for sure. I will do what needs to be done today because there’s not really any other option. But I feel it’ll probably be done with no feeling behind it, I’ll just be going through the motions…at the moment I have no hopes for what may happen in the future, no cares that something may go wrong later….just nothing.
I never expected the day of my “big” u/s to start off like this. I thought I would be worried and anxious and nervous and heck, but I feel none of that. Maybe that’s a plus? I don’t know. Sure hope tomorrow is an “up” day.