I’ve been *almost* thinking of looking for baby names. I had names already picked out for a girl last time. For a boy, DH wants to go with the same name our other son has, and he has, and his dad has. *sigh* I don’t really want to do that, but for some reason I’m fine with a shorter version of his name, so it’s the only boy name that fits right now.
But for girl names, that would be a challenge. It’s also one that I’m not sure I’m ready to dive into. I almost feel like if I start choosing a name, it’s like I’m assuming that everything will be perfectly fine with baby and that may jinx things. I really hate assuming things.
Sometimes I feel like I want to just jump in and start thinking of names and other times I feel like it’s not time yet. Maybe it has to do with the fact that, even though I know I’m pg and I am happy about it each day, I’m not totally convinced there’s really an actual baby in there yet. Last time I had a blighted ovum. I think once I see fetal development on the ultrasound, this may all become more real to me. Maybe then, I can start to think of names, after I’ve been able to see that there is a little one trying to grow in there.
Like one lady on a message board said, being pregnant after a loss is so hard. It definitely changes your perspective on the whole situation and process. I do think it’s getting a little easier for me though. Of course, with any bump in the road, I’ll probably be right back at square one. Still one day at a time…
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