Something that I think enters a lot of mother’s minds after they bring a newborn home is “is there enough of me to go around.” This baby was my 5th living child and I still wonder that. Even though time after time I’ve found that, somehow, things work out. I have to admit, the first 4-6 weeks were quite challenging. I don’t think that’s unusual when you have a new addition to your family. But thankfully things seem to be getting better. We seem to be “settling in” a bit and life is beginning to feel more and more normal. I’m still surprised sometimes at how strongly I feel about baby. It’s amazing. I think the older I get, the more I realize that anything can be taken from you in a split second. Knowing that causes some very strong emotions and feelings about one’s family. My family is sooooooooo important to me. Even though baby has only been with us for a few months, I can’t imagine what it would be like to be without her. The thought alone is heart wrenching. I wouldn’t want to lose any of my kids, but I think the innocence of a newborn makes the feeling even stronger. The thought of a sweet baby being hurt in any way just turns my insides like nothing else. The older I get, the more I cherish every moment I have with my family and every moment I have in this life I’ve been given.