Yee-Haw, Woo-Hoo! Today I am 10 weeks pregnant. Double digits! That’s 10 out of 40 done and complete ~ 1/4 of the way there. Eek! It’s so cool, yet it’s almost too fast! This may very well be my last pregnancy, though the way I feel right now, I don’t know that I’m ready to say it’s my last. How strange is that considering when I was pregnant with my son I “knew” that would be the last time. Funny how things change.
I did drink a lot of water today, but I’m noticing that my tummy is bigger than usual. I don’t know, maybe I just don’t remember, but I really don’t think I had this much of a stomach this early with any of my other kids. Maybe with my son, but I know not with my others. Maybe I just drank a lot of water? I’m just a little surprised at how much of a belly I already have. Usually I can go around without family knowing I’m pregnant for around 16 weeks (with my youngest, some still couldn’t tell at 20 weeks). That’s not going to happen this time. Unfortunately I don’t think it’s because there are two babies in there. That would be very cool, but I really just want one healthy baby. I’m not even going to hope for any more than that. If I get more than that, what a blessing that would be! But I don’t want to be greedy. One healthy baby would be a dream come true.
I think my bigger belly is just me collecting fat already. In a way it’s a little discouraging, but in another I’m loving it. It’s just a little discouraging because I know how long it took for me to get back into shape (that I was proud of) after my son was born and if I’m already starting to lose that, I’m going to have a lot of work to do post-partum to get back into shape. I’m trying not to let that rain on my pregnancy parade though. Bottom line is, I need to get more active and get back to exercising regularly. I’ve been slacking and that’s what’s getting me down…knowing that I’m not doing anything about it right now. BUT, I’ve been soooooo tired these past few days. Today was no exception. I got a great nap in, but still felt tired even after that.
Earlier in pregnancy, I had cramping, then my boobs hurt, then I had queasiness, then I HAD to eat every 2-3 hours, then I got more nauseous that ever before during a pregnancy, and now my energy is soooooo low. At least I didn’t have all of these in combination with each other. Some overlapped a bit, but it’s almost been like a progression. Like different phases. As soon as I start to worry a bit that one pregnancy sign is gone, I realize that another has taken it’s place and I relax again. What a ride it’s been and, truthfully, I can’t complain. I’m so happy, every day, that I am carrying a new life inside of me…and I’m still taking it, one day at a time….
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